Respect the Run: Earning the ice bath, taking the walk of shame
Posted: 2012/03/30 Filed under: Running | Tags: Delayed onset muscle soreness, half marathon training, Ice, Ice bath, Kryptonite, Lexus, Long run and short run, Running 2 CommentsCould also be called ; Why is the crazy curly haired girl taking ice baths? or even What kind of loser has to “thice” after only 4 miles? Why the fuzzle (stole this from him) would I ice bath? To flush out toxins, lessen inflammation and hopefully speed healing. Apparently my body isn’t as badass yet as I would like. I shall now apply randomness and logic to this little bit of chaos in order to unlock it.
Running has been, shall we say, difficult lately. So difficult in fact that it has really been testing my, there are no bad runs, theory. It all started the weekend of my Birthday when it hurt really badly to run the 10k. Then this week I bailed on a run in the middle. I haven’t bailed in the middle of a run in over a year and when I did I think I did the distance either on the elliptical or walked it to completion. So I suppose if we are going to get all detailed and logical about this, this week I bailed on my first run.
Running well is a combination of a bunch of different parts choosing to work together. I’m pretty sure all runners try to push themselves to get better and I am no different. Therefore, whenever I am running I am trying to find a comfortable pace that I can maintain for the entire distance of the run. I would like that pace to be as fast as possible and as easy as possible. I’d prefer if it continued to drop and I continue to train and though I wouldn’t call myself pace obsessed, some people are very pace obsessed, I have a goal of finishing the 13.1 at under 12:00 minutes per mile. I want my heart rate, muscles, and lungs to all be in sync with no complaining. Heart rate too fast? Breathing too hard? I have to slow down and let those two catch up. The worst running condition for me is one where my breath and heart are in sync, but my muscles just can’t keep up. The absolute worst is when I find myself in this condition within the first 500 yards. During this month I have put in 49.7 running miles for a total of 117.5 so far training for this race. Our short runs are 4 miles two days a week and our longs have been multiple 6’s, a 7.5 and an 8. These middle miles are killing my thighs. Sure my calves and hamstrings are sore and tired as well but nothing like what my quads and other front of thigh muscles are going through. If I’d been less busy over this month I would of written a running post about how 6 miles is my Kryptonite. I have slogged through 3 sets of difficult 6 mile runs with tight legs that aren’t cooperating. Not only that, but also my thighs are often tight and unhappy for my 4 mile runs. So on one hand this has been demoralizing as fuzzle because I don’t really like being consistently at the way back of the pack, it limits my ability to have girl talk b/c everyone is in front of me and it starts to wear on my confidence. On the other hand I have gotten REALLY good over the last 4 weeks at making myself keep running with tight legs in the hopes they will eventually loosen up and stop hurting long enough to have some good miles before the end. I have tried to make sure I stretch, and hydrate and foam roll in various timings and combinations all to no avail. Most runs equaled tight legs and inner mind battle for perseverance. All of this was starting to catch up to me last week, and after Wednesday’s awful 4 mile run I wanted to cry. To be fair it is bitch week this week and my stress level has been very high lately so I probably wanted to cry anyway. But I didn’t cry, I went into the wellness center and busted out my push-up, made rolly love to one of their foam rollers, and stretched.
As I came out into the hallway I saw my favorite Kenyan coach, he isn’t my coach this year but we bonded last year. He runs the advanced group I was invited to no longer participate in (thank GOD) and I only see him now in passing. He is always passing me 🙂 There isn’t a distance I wouldn’t try to run for that Kenyan. He is the best Lola pusher and he does it with the almost magical quiet way. He has these dark eyes that bore right into you and he isn’t a big fast talker like me. I ran into him and he asked me how I was. Ok was my answer but then he just looked at me and didn’t say anything, this is the magical quiet trick, and then started crossing the hallway over to me and I knew I was busted. So I told him my troubles and we decided I should ice my thighs before the half way run. Renewed emotionally I went home and “thiced” for the next two days. If I’d been less stressed this month I’d of written about what kind of loser has to “thice” after a 4 mile run. Ahem, this one. But you know what? It worked because last Saturday when Babu and I completed our 7.5 mile half way run, I felt great.
Great enough to take an ice bath! While thicing I remembered this post from Another Mother Runner. Eureka, I will take an ice bath on Saturday after my run I thought to myself. I declared my intent to Babu, I made him purchase me not only a giant Diet Mountain Dew, but also a post run 22 pound bag of ice. A bag of ice so big it barely fits on the back floor boards of the Lexus. I didn’t want to fuzzle it up so I Googled a little bit to make sure I knew the proper steps, Ice Bath (triing2survive.wordpress.com) helped me make some good process decisions.
I put on my favorite Colts Hoodie; the only item of Babu’s clothing technically mine now because I got it in the Almost Divorce, I started running a cold bath, and I had the evil minions on stand by for ice duty. I waited for the water to get a couple of inches high and then I lowered myself gently and daintily into the chilling water without only a little smirk and absolutely no cursing. This is a lie, I screamed crazy uncontrollable things for at least 10 seconds. I think I even made the evil minions go away until I got into the bath so I could be alone with this crazy torture the first time through. Once I was of course demurely settled into my bath position I let them come in and add roughly 10 pounds of the ice a little at a time directly to the water. I have since had a 2nd and 3rd one of these, they got the coveted ice job again last night. It’s very cold. I stay in for a minimum of 10 minutes and no longer than 20. For the record I’ve probably made it a grand total of 17 minutes so far. I’m getting better at making them colder and being able to tolerate it, but not at staying in longer once I do. I kind of look forward to them actually. After Saturday’s run and ice bath my legs felt great. Even the 4 mile run I had on Monday felt great. I was suddenly excited about running again instead of feeling like I’m living an ongoing science experiment to tweak things in the hopes of finally getting a great run in. Come Wednesday I was anxious for the 8 miles. I noticed that my hip was bothering me a bit and my legs were pretty tight on Tuesday and Wednesday at work. So much so I have been wearing, gasp, flats and when I walk it looks like a combo penguin waddle, lame limp. But I stretch before the run and I’m confident I can make my body go through 8 miles.
It doesn’t work like that, as soon as I start my legs force a reduced pace. My left hip hurts, my left foot hurts, my thighs hurt. I can breath, my heart is fine but my legs simply will not go any faster. I am barely even sweating. After 1.9 miles of playing let’s see how I feel after we get to X on the route; knowing that we were over 12:30, that I was robbing Babu of having a really great run, and that it actually HURT to run at barely 2 miles in, it was time to bail on this run. I wasn’t upset, I wanted to make the right decision, so we talked about it. I need to know I’m not a wussy if I bail on this run, don’t complete the miles and walk back to Y. I told Babu I wanted to feel like I earned my ice bath. He officially questioned my sanity at that point. We decided I had plenty of time to get in plenty of miles; we run a 15k next Saturday, and that I needed to be smart not stubborn. The second I stopped to walk I knew I made the right decision. This felt just as badly as that run 4 weeks ago when I was also sick. I walked as fast as I could back and just decided to take in the beautiful and sunny day and weather. I got to jam out to my tunes and just let my mind wander. I suppose it was a not so shameful walk of shame. Never been on one of those before, swear. Once I got back I did my push ups and came home for my earned OH Sweet Baby Jesus Mother Mary and Joseph that’s cold ice-bath.
I also….. went to the chiro, found out I was really jacked up in the pelvis area, got that adjusted. Looked up my stats and discovered this is the most I have ever run to train for something. 117 miles have been put in on this race so far and most of them have been running. There is no injury mandated elliptical training or running buddy mandated interval pacing on this race. I have run the most and the longest in my life so far. No wonder the middle miles are killing me. I’m running 3, 4 milers in a row before I run that 15k, earn my next ice bath, and hopefully at the roughly 11:30 pace I’ve managed to cultivate from the 12+ I started with a few months ago.
Related articles
- Ice Bath (triing2survive.wordpress.com)
- Week 11 + “ice” bath (marathonmolly.wordpress.com)
- The Ice Bath (roadrunnersblog.com)
- Really? The Claim: An Ice Bath Can Soothe Sore Muscles (well.blogs.nytimes.com)
Respect The run: Running Sick take 2- even a bad run is a good one
Posted: 2012/03/04 Filed under: Running | Tags: half marathon training, Running Leave a commentMost of my runs last week were rough, but I’m still glad I did them. Monday was fine, the first time on the up route, the one that has some hill work. By hill work I mean requiring me to raise my knees higher any longer than for the dips in the curb to get on and off the street. It was a 4 miler and it actually went really well. The hills sucked but he weather was decent and I broke an 11 minute pace. My legs were tight from that small amount of hill work, they chose to let me know this in the middle of Wednesday’s 5 miler. Wednesday always seem to bring the best weather and the most brutal run of the week. This week Wednesday brought me a tickle in my throat working its way to a full blown cough, 20 mile winds and a 2nd trip on the 5 miler route that turns around in the parking lot of the church Babu and I got married in almost 12 years ago. The weather was awesome enough to entice me to dig the running skirt out of the drawer and slide on the body glide. Technical difficulties with fiddling with Runkeeper caused us to start at the very back of the pack. I just couldn’t seem to put anything together; my breath was hard, my heart rate was climbing and my legs were not happy about Monday’s run. We made our way through it but he wasn’t feeling the best either and we don’t have very much fun together running when we are both one-sided. When it was over we high fived like we always do at the end of a run and I knew two things. One- I was probably getting sick Two- My body was begging for a date or 4 with the foam roller.
Side Bar: If you think running with your mate is all romantic and will be super bonding conversation time I laugh while I tell you that happens about 20% of the time. Another 20-40% is “You’re not very fun to run with are you” and/or “This running this very one-sided for you isn’t in?” time. Babu is right on one of those counts. Running is and should be a one-sided sport. Running is nothing more than a battle of you vs. you. Maybe the Kenyans are trash talking each other on the course but every person who runs at the for kicks level I do is nothing but supportive out there because we all get that we are all battling ourselves. Near as I can tell the rule of the road is go on ahead if you are able and I am not. That gets a little sticky with a spouse or maybe even a running buddy that is also a really good friend. Babu and I have been running together for a while now, only due to his recent back injuries and my recent increase in ability have we gotten on a more even running field. Always in the past he has been better than me and usually trained at his own pace group unless it was just the two of us. Then he would choose to stay with me in the races. I’d still say he is the better runner of the two of us but we are in this weird sort of no mans land where you just don’t know who will be the better runner on any given run. We are fine tuning our run communication emotional expectations. The rest of that running together is spent just running some version of near each other and plowing through mile after mile together, they best we each can while trying to engage and support the other at whatever level they require that day.
Friday rolled around and I knew I was actually ill. I had a 10k training race in prep for the Mini Marathon in May and I didn’t want to miss it. I debated, but in the end decided I would foam roll and stretch out as mush of the pain and tightness as I could and run anyway. I decided I would get up at 5:45, med up to dry out my nose and stop my cough and sweat it out. I knew going into the race it would likely be a rough run. I have cursed all Saturday weather this year with wind and cold and yesterday was no different. Wednesday’s 20 mile winds combined with 25 degrees and a course full of every hill our flat downtown has to offer. Even in the excitement of the race start our first mile was 12:30. My heart rate was fine, but I was getting light-headed and my body ached. I kept running and by mile 3 my hips and knees felt like someone was stabbing them with every step, if I slowed down to fast walking my leg muscles tightened and screamed at me. I finally told Babu about getting light-headed and slowed down to walk. I am sick, I shouldn’t be out on this course right now. He agreed. This is going to sound crazy but I was still happy to actually be out on the course. Slowing down to that walk allowed Babu and I to have one of those rare 20% of runs were we engage in couple conversation bonding time. I’m glad that I now know what it is like to have a bad run on cold medication, if I choose to do it again I will adjust accordingly. I’m happy that I got my push-ups out of the way before the race and didn’t have to worry about them when I got home. I’m not all that thrilled that my body feels worse after my 1:22 10k than it did after my first 13.1. But ultimately I am still happy that I completed those 6.4 race miles, even if half of them were walking and all of them “sucked”. I will also admit I’m a little anxious about Monday’s run, but hopefully a few more dates with the foam roller will alleviate those concerns. And maybe even if Monday is still rough, Wednesday’s pending 6 miles will feel like nothing compared to Saturday’s 6,4.
Respect the Run: Running the Little Lovies and random training musings
Posted: 2012/02/25 Filed under: Running | Tags: half marathon training, Running Leave a commentThis morning in the cold, wind and not really snow but blowing snowflakes I slogged my tight legs and body through a 5K. I don’t know why winter always has to pick my Saturday runs to remind me that it really is February in Indiana. We are having an incredibly mild winter here, so I really shouldn’t complain. I’ve had plenty of Monday and Wednesday runs in capris and a long sleeve shirt, practically unheard of for the season and certainly not the bitter cold and ice I ran in last winter. It just seems like every time the weekend Saturday morning run comes, I wake up to something that feels more like February is supposed to. Mileage is climbing for Mini training. Last week was 4 on Monday and 5 on Wednesday, from here on out each week will bring a new longer Wednesday distance. I’m grateful for the ability to run, I’m grateful for an injury free body so far. But man I am telling you this morning I was not grateful for the weather. The local High School sponsors what they call a Tiger Trot every year. It is a fund raiser for their cross country and track teams. There is a 5K for the adults and families with kids that can run that far, and a 1 mile race for the kiddos. It is no secret to MiniMe and The Destroyer that we are trying to turn them into runners, that we desire to make this running thing a family sport. We started them on the Rookie Run last year, followed it up with the 2 mile Freedom Festival and this morning I subjected them to something that is likely a little more like what “real” running will be for them. A small race, with a few participants and support coming from basically the parents of the runners.
The 5K was probably smaller than 130 runners. I say this because I clocked a 34:03 according to the race results. Pretty darn respectable considering my 5K PR is a 33:43 I gained last year in the Mini training series when Babu set the first miles pace at something like 9:00. The Freedom Festival I finished under 40 minutes and I don’t even know what I did the Turkey Trot in without looking it up on Runkeeper and I am in a hurry to get this post done and too lazy to go do that. The point is I came in on the race results sheet listed as #103 …. out of #105. Now Babu and the kids came to the finish line to cheer me on as I entered the track for the one lap to finish, and he swears there were at least 4-5 people behind me. And we saw more coming in as we headed out to the track with the kids. I’m not too bummed about being listed as 103/105 because an 11:06 is not too darn shabby for me thank you very much. I have been sore and tight since Wednesday, just now coming down from the Girl Scout Cookie diet and it was seriously freezing and windy this morning. To be honest I was grateful I wasn’t doing the normal 45 minute Saturday run because I would have been required to put another mile on the 3.2 this morning and I really don’t know if I had it in me today.
How does this tie into the Little Lovies? Well for starters we didn’t train them for this race, at all. They were running cold, in the cold with only the assurance from Babu and I that they had already run 2 miles with Dad, so this should be no sweat. The course was a basic 4 times around the track and the top finisher was a girl about 12-13 who did it in 6, yes SIX MINUTES!!!! Both MinieMe and The Destroyer had times during those 4 laps when they struggled. Both of them had times when they started to stop and walk. I knew The Destroyer would probably not give up, but I had some doubts about MiniMe. She wants me to sign her up for Girls On The Run, and I swear I’m going to get off my butt and do it soon. Pacing is an issue for both of them and somewhere along the 2nd lap she was seriously losing steam. Babu and I ran back and forth across the field to catch them on both sides of the track and when I got there for lap 2, she yelled to me. “Mom, I can’t do it!” She was already holding her side and she needed to simply slow down her pace and breathe through it, but she also needed a boost of badass. I’ve been there so many times it isn’t even funny. There are some runs where I call on my mantras, or use a breath trick, or some other mind trick to make my head get it in gear and let my body keep doing its thing. Sometimes I’m not sure which part of me is convincing the other that we can keep doing this, but somehow I pull it out of myself and just do it. So many things in life are a mind trick, a convince yourself, an attitude or confidence thing. Running helps fine tune those inner mind skills and part of the reason I want to turn the Little Lovies into runners is so they learn how to engage those skills early. Running may be the one sport where trash talk is looked down on. In Running it is expected that you support and cheer those around you. At least in the back of the pack where I run, that’s how we roll. So I shouted as loud as I could to her and she headed my way, “You Absolutely CAN do it, baby” You absolutely can. Slow down and find a pace, but don’t stop running.” And I could see her little face screw up in resolve, I could see that stubborn streak make its way out in the form of keep going. And darn if she didn’t come in near the back of the participants, but that little 9 year old still clocked a 10 minute mile with zero training. Her little brother found the whole thing a little easier and finished around 9:15. Both of them, even when struggling, can go faster than us right now.
After they were done, we both hugged them and told them how proud we were, but they were both grumpy and not happy about the cold or the run. In fact he was crying about how he hated running and there was nothing good about it. I’ve been there after a run or 5, but I also have the benefit of knowing that training makes it easier. If we keep them doing this, if we continue to set an example for them with our own runs, we maybe just maybe can accomplish that family of runners dream I have. After some hot chocolate and another ribbon/medal to add to their collection they were feeling pretty proud of themselves. By the time we got home they were already talking about doing the Rookie Run again in May. Don’t tell Babu but I just had an idea that maybe I will sign us up for the St. Patrick’s Day run as a family. After all the whole idea of turning them into runners started because it is hard to get babysitting at 6:30 in the morning so both Mom and Dad can run 5K’s. If we run them as a family, no babysitting needed!
PS- IPhone Runkeeper access and OCD to the rescue! Turkey Trot was 36:20, that totally had to be from trying to keep up with Martini Curls b/c I was so out of shape in that race it was ridic. So my worst 5K is still Freedom Festival at 39:06, that was heat and humidity for sure.
Respect the Run: Running for Sherry Arnold this morning
Posted: 2012/02/11 Filed under: Running | Tags: half marathon training, Running, Sherry Arnold, virtual run for Sherry Arnold Leave a commentHappy Saturday Lovies. In the middle of all the exciting things I have to do today like, make valentines and pay bills I wanted to sit down and focus for a few moments on telling you about my run this am.
Several months ago the plan for this morning’s run was to compete in the Indianapolis 500 Mini marathon Festival training Series 5K. I found out last week that our sitter was not going to be here and that my husband was going to choose to go see a band in Chicago for an overnight boys trip. The training program canceled our regular Saturday morning run b/c we all should of been downtown in the 5K anyway. In response to these events I made plans on Monday night with one of my group running buddies to meet and run together on Saturday at the usual time. On Wed night re firmed those plans up. See you Saturday at 9am we both committed to each other on the way out Wednesday night.
I don’t know what kind of winter you are having where you live but in Indianapolis we have been having Spring in January and February. That is we WERE having spring in January and February until roughly yesterday. Sure we seem to always be running in wind and ice and snow/sleet etc but honestly in spite of all of that temps have been quite mild. As a seasoned Midwesterner i knew this had to come to a screeching end at any minute and when I checked the phone while still in my nice warm bed at roughly 8am this was confirmed. 16 degrees outside feels like 2!!!!!! Ugh! I am tired, it is cold, my bed is warm and my children and still sleeping. All I want to do is roll over and go back to sleep, even if it is alone minus the cat, for another few hours. I start to ponder this idea in my head. I have committed to Not Kathy that I will meet her at the Y and run at exactly 9am. I do not have her phone number and if I bail I will have to do it via email, possibly leaving her alone to work out. This would be a serious put a $1 in the douchebag jar move and definitely would not fit in with my new mantra of respect the run. It won’t respect my run if I lie in bed, it won’t respect my runner, me or my running buddy.
Click below to learn more about Sherry and her story. The day isn’t over Lovies, go run for Sherry!!!
Virtual Run for Sherry Arnold
Now i’m not going to lie here, that is pretty much a theme of my blog anyway, tell you way more truth than you ever bargained for. I planned to run today for Sherry, I thought about it for several weeks , I knew last night my miles would be for her today. But I didn’t remember that when I force myself out of bed at least 15 minutes later than I should of. Begin the frenetic dance of yelling, rushing and trying to get everything ready and out the door in time. I manage to arrive at the Y with both kids in tow and there sitting waiting for me is Not Kathy, all ready to go. If I had been more together I would of/should of printed out the bibs for both Not Kathy and I to wear. I should of told Not Kathy at the beginning of our run that we were doing it for Sherry and I should of been thankful and God/Sherry centered on every one of those steps, but I wasn’t. I was just another rushed Mom trying to get her run in and not let her running buddy down.
We started out on the route and the first thing I noticed is how my face was frozen before we hit the first cross walk. How about we circle the park and come back , buddy suggests. Deal, I say, but we need to add Farley/Turkel b/c we need the mileage. Agreed. We are set on our path. Not Kathy is one of my pace mentors in the group. As In she is ever so slightly better than me and I push to keep up with her and another girl on our runs, by the end I have usually dropped back and they go on to finish a bit ahead of me. between the 3 of us in that small group I am the elder woman, Not Kathy is in the middle and Cute Hat is the baby. We represent 20,30 and 40 quite well. Not Kathy tells me early that she is going to stay with me the whole time today and I tease her that she is getting as easy morning b/c she is with me and I am slower.
Except today…. I am not slower. There is absolutely no reason for this. But this am in the awful chilling cold and wind, in the loneliness of just the two of us on a route usually populated with 30+ other runners, I am setting the pace and we seem to be rocking it. At first my runkeeper is being screwy and it tells us roughly half a mile in that we have already a mile in 6 minutes. I tell her what it is saying and we both get a laugh. It helps that we don’t know each other well at all and so we are talking. We talk about marriage and life and other things that women share. I am running hard but I am not really feeling like I am running hard, I am just kind of doing it and my body is rewarding me with the strength to just keep doing it. As we round the large mile circle of park and start to approach the tree line of the turn it hits me. SHERRY! So I tell Not Kathy about Sherry and today and how she died. She went out for a run alone and never came back. We talk about safety, confidence, being a woman. How there are evil men and people in this world and that you have to be careful not to get too cocky or comfortable because… you just never know. As we are completing the final half of that run I notice that the runkeeper seems to be adjusting itself and that it also seems we have something like a 10:12 pace.
I’ve thought about Sherry’s story a lot since it came to my attention. She seemed strong, confident, secure. She was what I would call a real athlete. A woman dedicated to the run. A woman who absolutely respected the run. A woman who may have even inspired others to run prior to that horrible morning when evil men crossed her path and she did not prevail. I went on a solo run on my usual around the country block route shortly after she came into my frame of reference. And I was scared shitless the entire time. There are multiple registered sex offenders close enough to my house to drive by my solo run. There are a thousand things that could go wrong. I am feisty but I bet Sherry was too. Sherry is considered dead and I am blessed to be alive. I don’t even know her and I cried for her this morning.
I cannot stress to you how much I am NOT a 10:12 runner. I am apparently becoming one, but swear to 6 lb 4 oz little baby Jesus I am just NOT. This morning though. I absolutely was. Sherry, girl? Did you bless me with that kick ass badass feisty pace this morning in spite of all that cold and wind? I don’t want to discount my own hard work, my own newly renewed dedication to this sport and to my own health. I don’t want to discount the role Not Kathy played in keeping us on pace, but I think maybe Sherry did play a part even in some small way to getting me to that 10:12.
So Sherry, I want you to know that I never knew you, but you have moved me. And for that, this morning I moved the earth for you today. Not nearly as astoundingly as you deserved girl, but know that your legacy will live on. I and countless others than never even met you moved the earth for you today and in us your legacy will live on! I hope you had a great run in Heaven this morning girl. Rest in Peace!
Related articles
- Get up and run – for Sherry and yourself (georgeblogs.wordpress.com)
- Run for Sherry (autopilotlegs.com)
- Missing Montana Teacher Sherry Arnold: FBI Joins Search – ABC News (abcnews.go.com)
Found my running mojo- Respect the Run
Posted: 2012/02/01 Filed under: Running | Tags: half marathon training, halfmarathon, Indianapolis, OneAmerica 500 Festival Mini-Marathon, Running, Training 2 CommentsI’ve had this running post in my head since Wednesday of last week, and only just have a few minutes to sit down and get it out. I’m training for my 2nd Indianapolis 500 Mini Marathon. Indianapolis is my city and “The Mini” as we call it around here is always a topic of conversation every year. Last year was my first one and it was very enjoyable. It is 13.1 miles of people cheering for you along the sidelines as bands set up playing along the way. The route takes you onto the actual track for a loop and part of our downtown. I followed up that first 13.1 last year with the inaugural Women’s Half Marathon. Similar route but MUCH different in the support and entertainment arena. It is probably more like what most Half Marathons are like, you are running for yourself without much benefit of sideline support outside of the water and fuel stops and the handful of husbands and friends on the sidelines.
This year I signed up for both of those halfs again, and in my last running post I wrote about feeling kind of meh this year about training. Partially it was the been there done that aspect, last winter was pretty brutal and being a very beginner runner all of that outside training in the cold, wind, ice and snow served to fuel my inner badass. This year it just felt like, how soon will it get warm again?!? My right foot has been bothering me a little and I was afraid I was getting another stress fracture. So far I have still not called Dr. Hate because I am able to run with no pain and the pain I’m experiencing after has lessened. I picked up new shoes after Monday’s run and tonight I will be running on them for the first time.
Running is 20% physical and 80% mental. If you want to be able t push yourself and your body all of the miles needed to properly train and then race, you have to have something inside of you keeping you going. Some runners adopt a mantra, a phrase they can repeat to themselves to help them through the rough spots. Last year I had several, most of them were resolute tirades aimed toward all of the crap that I went through during the Almost Divorce. This year, I had nothing. I had nothing so badly I had even forgotten about the need or want of a mantra. I started this training program a few weeks ago woefully out of shape, as in struggle to even get a mile without walking out of shape. As I run more it gets better by leaps and bounds. Last Wednesday was pace trials. Our first 3 miler and a timed start. I followed through on my plan to drop from the advanced group to the beginner group and let both coaches know. Once they let us begin I started my run. If you haven’t ever trained with a group I highly recommend it. It is nice to have so many people around you, even if you start to spread out as the miles climb there is the comfort of knowing that even if there are LOTS of people ahead of you, there is usually also someone behind you. There are people you don’t know very well to talk to, there is always someone to give you some encouragement to just keep going. I started in a pack with about 8 other girls in my pace range and we kept up at about a 12 min pace for the first 2 miles. I ran without walking no problems for those first two miles, the street was ice from sleet and the rainy icy pellets were hitting me in the face. Cars were sliding on the streets we were running on and I started to feel it. The badass feeling was returning. I am conquering nature. We turned onto the part of the route I call Farley/Tukle home, because it represents the last mile or so and I started to slow down. This was pace trials I wanted to have as good of a time as I could, I wanted to be sub 12, not 12+. Then it just sort of popped into my head, run without walking. If I can just keep running without walking I can rock this to the best of my ability. For the next mile as our group started to spread out I ran that mantra through my head. Run without walking, run without walking, RUN WITHOUT WALKING! And before I knew it I was headed down the stretch of the last tenth of a mile and to a time of 32:36. I had found my mojo, I am conquering myself! It was an absolute breakthrough on several fronts. One it reminded me that I lacked a mantra. Two it reminded me that if you train, your body will respond. That you will never be as weak as you are in any given moment if you just keep moving. That your body is capable of so much more than you routinely ask of it and if you put the work in, it will reward you by responding. I walked away from that pace run knowing that I wouldn’t have to worry about walking anymore during training. If I do the miles and keep up the training, if I fuel and water my body properly then I will perhaps even be able to finish in a better time that last year, set a new half PR.
Saturday’s ran came and it was super windy, Saturdays are a times run, 45 minutes as far as you can go, a simple 22.5 minutes out and 22.5 minutes back. So group seems to stay a little tighter on Saturdays and I did a lot of talking about my weekend plans so I didn’t really need to call upon a mantra.
Monday’s run came and as I suspected the head coach placed me in the beginner group with the other girls and guys above 10 min miles. We did a 3 and I turned onto Farley/Turkle home I knew I would have to dig for that last mile. I didn’t feel like I needed to walk but I knew I needed to go inside myself and find a mental place that would propel me to the end. Then it came to me, respect the run. My mantra for this year will be respect the run and in extension respect the runner. A reminder to myself that what I am giving my body and mind via running is nothing but good and pure. That it is a gift to be able to run, to be alive to have the struggle of breath, to be married to have the support of my husband. It is a gift, this body God gave me, and I will respect it via the run. I will use the run to mold it. I will respect and cherish the clarity and endorphin rush running brings me. I will remember that The RUN isn’t something to be trifled with. RESPECT THE RUN!!!!
Happy running Lovies!



You must be logged in to post a comment.